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How video games helped me cope with depression

And made it worse?

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Video games have been a vital part of my life. My first game was JumpStart. Frogger quickly followed. From Frogger, I played Sonic the Hedgehog, Super Mario Bros., and Suikoden II. Playing video games was pretty much how my siblings and I spent time together when we weren’t studying and pretending to do our homework.

I once borrowed a girl’s Nintendo DS and played Harvest Moon: Friends of Mineral Town and obsessed over farming and flirting. No, seriously… This was the game that weirdly taught me how to flirt. I know I’m not the only one (I think). I honestly hope not, but that’s for a different article for another time.

Playing games was a large part of my childhood. But, it cemented itself into my life in a different way when I suffered from depression.

I think I was thirteen when depression and I had met but didn’t quite know each other’s names. I honestly thought it was a phase. “Thirteen and depressed,” sounded too silly to have been an actual thing. It was strange. I don’t quite know what was going on with myself. I just knew I had absolutely no motivation to not only be thirteen but to also, just be.

I remember staying up one night playing Ori and the Blind Forest on my laptop and feeling like I needed to just play it. I zoned out and played until the end. By then, it was morning. I had to wash up and head to class completely unprepared. As much as the day that followed that night was pretty much set to be horrible, I felt less anxious about having a bad day.

I realize now, in retrospect, that much of playing games growing up has taught me to be fine with failure. Well, I suppose that was the case because I was completely terrible at games, but had the stubbornness of a completionist.

Night in the Woods was one of the notable games that helped me through tough times.

I played games to escape the daunting reality of existence. From mulling over the purpose of life to the significance of one’s self in the grander scheme of society, I was not going to have it. No, sir. No, ma’am. No, thank you. I was going to play to have fun and if it meant watching my character die over the dumbest of things, I was going to laugh it off and start over.

I grew up failing a lot at games, but it’s not to say I failed at every single thing. Much of my first games were educational ones which set me up to know out-of-left-field facts. The ones that followed were pretty much where I learned to get better by failing.

Games like Suikoden II and Harvest Moon were where I learned to play once for the fun and a second time to meet all the stars of destiny to save Nanami from dying and to make every single non-playable character (NPC) fall in love with me. I’m not obsessive; I just have a fear of missing out.

Games may have played a vital role in my escapism, but sometimes that sense of detachment from reality is necessary to come back functioning better than before. In cases like mine, it taught me a healthy way to cope with my depression.

You see, when I was depressed, how I saw myself was pretty much distorted from reality. It still is sometimes. In many ways, video games can be a great avenue to strip yourself of the haunting noises in your head. This may not follow for some games with inevitably toxic chats but remember: They’re as much sad saps as you are — just kidding. Be nice, play nice, and have fun.

Playing games gives you the opportunity to shift perspective and alter your sense of reality. You get to decide whether to take it seriously or to take a step back and consider it as just a game. Also, there’s more to video games than having fun. Sometimes, dabbling into the deep technicalities make the game all the more fun.

How you immerse yourself can change how the game changes you and how willing you are to have it change you. As for me, it’s sometimes what keeps my sanity in check.

SEE ALSO: Indygo: A game that talks about depression

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Snapdragon 865 Hands-on: Top 5 Features

5G for all, 200MP, 8K, and more.

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As we lean towards the second decade of the millennium, Qualcomm is ready to ship out their next flagship chipset.

Snapdragon has been running most devices people use today. Snapdragon 865 (together with the midrange 765) are two of Qualcomm’s chipset offerings for 2020. They offer more than incremental performance boosts.

Watch more to know the top 5 promising features of the new chipset.

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24 hours in Mövenpick with the Honor 9X

I didn’t want to leave

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I know you must feel strange to be hearing back from me writing another travel article when last time I tried, I preemptively said that I was horrible at writing about my adventures. Well, you guys might have to deal with reading my silly little travel psychobabble again because I went to Cebu for a weekend and I brought the Honor 9X with me.

Feeling beachy

Okay, this is technically not fair since Cebu is like home to me at this point. I luckily grew up visiting Cebu a lot. My older siblings were born there, so that’s not much of a surprise. On this trip though, my parents opted out of staying in a hotel in the middle of the bustling city. We decided to stay by the beach at Mövenpick. We have never been to Mövenpick before. So, it was going to be pretty interesting to explore the place.

The view was stunning. I didn’t even know what to capture first. It was that gorgeous. When we arrived, the staff were lovely enough to let us roam the area despite not having checked in yet. Mövenpick is pretty. The moment you get dropped off at the lobby, the place instantly assaults your senses with everything beach. It smells, sounds, and feels like you’re at the beach. 

That’s obviously because a few steps farther, you’re already at the beach. The place is well designed to have the ocean breeze flow from the bayfront to the resort lobby. It’s open-spaced.

No such thing as fasting at breakfast

This is the only photo of food I managed to snag before inhaling it. I’m not going to apologize for being a little hangry considering I hadn’t had a meal for hours and I stayed up all night. This is Mövenpick’s poached egg breakfast. Was it good? Yes. I mean, look at it. How could it not be?

I think off the bat, that how the food tasted may have shifted a little considering I was zoning out because of the view. It’s really pretty and honestly, it testing my writing skills (if I have any) to try and find more synonyms to great, pretty, and lovely. 

Dinner at the Ibiza

No, I didn’t take a pill in Ibiza. And yes I know, nobody asked. Mövenpick has this by-the-bay restaurant and bar called the Ibiza. They have live music and good food so if you’ve booked a room, this is the place to be at night. There’s food, an amazing view, and live music. Is there anything more I could have asked for? No. It was perfect.

The Ibiza is open in the morning too. If you want to have your breakfast there, you can soak in the early morning ocean breeze while eating.

Here come excuses

Alright, I didn’t take many photos while in Cebu, at least, not as many as I would like to. I wanted to savor every stunning moment there. I haven’t been back in ages and I’ve barely spent time at the beach. Not to mention, I rarely get to see my little nephew. 

I guess as much as this article is about bringing the Honor 9X with me to show off how the phone is capable of capturing every lovely moment of your travels, it’s good to sometimes be in the moment. It isn’t on the Honor 9X for uncaptured moments. It’s totally on me for leaving it in my bag. Having said that, I think it was good to have eased off bringing the phone along every single second of the trip. I’m more than happy to have lived those quiet undocumented moments.

I’m not saying you should drop taking pictures altogether. It’s nice to have documented moments of a trip especially when it’s somewhere stunning. It’s nice to have something to look back on and to remind us of good times. I suppose it’s just nice to sometimes wean off of being so obsessive with what you can capture and instead, be in the moment.

All photos are taken with the Honor 9X

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Realme X2 Pro Master Edition hands-on: Tough looks, solid performance

It’s made of a soft-frosted glass but feels like cement

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The Realme X2 Pro has gotten fans really excited. Touted as the new flagship killer, it has quad cameras, Snapdragon 855+, and other flagship-level features at an affordable price tag.

While the regular Realme X2 Pro is already pretty awesome, what we got here is even more intense. We have the Reame X2 Pro Master Edition to check out, the Concrete edition to be exact.

Tough looks

The Master Edition of the Realme X2 Pro also comes in a Red Brick design. I’m not too big a fan of that look, so I got the Concrete version instead.

The Realme X2 Pro Master Edition is designed by famous Japanese designer Naoto Fukasawa. It comes with a signature of the designer on the back panel.

The texture is pretty similar to the Sandstone feel of the older OnePlus devices — just less rough and more matte.

Realme says this is a soft-frosted glass although it’s hard to tell to be honest. The finish looks and feels like concrete cement even if it’s soft-to-touch.

Solid performance

Apart from the differences in design, it’s pretty much the same exact Realme X2 Pro inside. It packs 12GB of RAM and 256GB of internal storage.

The Realme X2 Pro has a 6.5-inch Full HD+ AMOLED display with a waterdrop notch, and a high 90Hz refresh rate. It boasts a 91.7 percent screen-to-body ratio and an in-display fingerprint scanner that works really fast.

Making it an even better media device is a pair of stereo speakers with Dolby Atmos, and a 3.5mm headphone jack.

There’s also a vapor chamber liquid cooling, a superconducting carbon fiber multi-layer scheme, multi-layer graphite sheet and other heat-dissipating materials so the phone can definitely game without heating issues.

This is all backed up by a massive 4000 mAh battery with 50W SuperVOOC Flash Charging technology. It can fully charge the phone from zero, in just about 35 minutes.

This super fast charging is definitely something anyone would appreciate. Imagine waking up in the morning and charging your phone while you’re in the shower. It’ll be ready and full just before you head out.

Capable cameras

The Realme X2 Pro has a quad-camera setup, with the Samsung GW1 64-MP sensor with a fast f/1.8 aperture as the main camera. There’s also a 13MP telephoto lens with support for up to 20x hybrid zoom, an 8MP ultra-wide with a 115-degree field-of-view, as well as a 2-megapixel depth sensor to help with portrait shots. Up front is a 16MP selfie camera.

In China the Realme X2 Pro is priced at CNY 3299 (US$ 469). In India, it will be going on sale around Christmas time for INR 34,999 (US$ 490).

What do you think about this version? Should phone companies make more special edition phones in a similar design? Let us know what you think in the comments below.

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